Tuesday 4 December 2012

I have my own reasons....

Hello and Assalamualaikum peeps.

Yeah I have my own reasons why I should end our relationship ( you know, me with him )

Clearly, we never discuss about this since I made a decision to ignore all the messages that I got from him. I am so mean!

It is like I'm running from the 'PROBLEM' that I'm having right now. There is nothing wrong with our relationship. ( in people opinions ) but there is something wrong with our relationship. Either it was from him or me.

I remember the first time he asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted it happily. I was super excited. I smiled almost every second of that day because of too happy. We texted almost everyday. I sacrificed a little bit by buying a new celcom number so it would be a little cheaper when we're texting. I was the only one who started every conversation.

One day my celcom number was missing ( actually accidently thrown by my sister ) after I exchanged my phone to the maxis number ( yeah I had only one phone on that time ). I told him about it and my expectation he would not mind to change his number.So its kinda his turn. But unfortunately, he seemed not care about it. He kept with his business. I realized a little bit, does he really love me? okay maybe he had no money to buy a new one. It was okay for me.

After that little incident, we texted occasionally. A month later, means our first monthsary, I wished it to him. I said thanks for being nice throughout our relationship. And he said same much pretty things to me.

I thought he would remember our next monthsary. But he did not. So I wished again. You see, how is this relationship going to work if I were the one who started everything first?! For me it seems unfair! Every conversation we went to, he never asked me how am I doing and stuffs like that. I dont get it what did he wants form our relationship? I mean come on, does he feels good just because he has girlfriend ( on title ) meanwhile his girlfriend doesnt feel like she's being loved my him?!

To be honest, I am not a kinda girl who is very lovely and stuffs. you know what I'm saying right? What I'm trying to say here, I dont feel he appreciates the existence of me in his life. Sad isnt it? But that is the truth.

Dont get me wrong here. He is such a nice man, and I love to be his friend. but to be his girlfriend, I dont think so. I had made a very wrong decision by being his girlfriend. I love if we stand more to friend, not more than this. Well I guess we are not meant to be. I am not the right woman to be with him. I dont deserve to be with him..

As a Muslim, love to Allah is the priority. Love after marriage is more blessed. Thank you for spending your time on here. I rarely talk about our love relationship, so I guess this the end. Have a nice day :)