I have my own reasons....

Hello and Assalamualaikum peeps.

Yeah I have my own reasons why I should end our relationship ( you know, me with him )

Clearly, we never discuss about this since I made a decision to ignore all the messages that I got from him. I am so mean!

It is like I'm running from the 'PROBLEM' that I'm having right now. There is nothing wrong with our relationship. ( in people opinions ) but there is something wrong with our relationship. Either it was from him or me.

I remember the first time he asked me to be his girlfriend and I accepted it happily. I was super excited. I smiled almost every second of that day because of too happy. We texted almost everyday. I sacrificed a little bit by buying a new celcom number so it would be a little cheaper when we're texting. I was the only one who started every conversation.

One day my celcom number was missing ( actually accidently thrown by my sister ) after I exchanged my phone to the maxis number ( yeah I had only one phone on that time ). I told him about it and my expectation he would not mind to change his number.So its kinda his turn. But unfortunately, he seemed not care about it. He kept with his business. I realized a little bit, does he really love me? okay maybe he had no money to buy a new one. It was okay for me.

After that little incident, we texted occasionally. A month later, means our first monthsary, I wished it to him. I said thanks for being nice throughout our relationship. And he said same much pretty things to me.

I thought he would remember our next monthsary. But he did not. So I wished again. You see, how is this relationship going to work if I were the one who started everything first?! For me it seems unfair! Every conversation we went to, he never asked me how am I doing and stuffs like that. I dont get it what did he wants form our relationship? I mean come on, does he feels good just because he has girlfriend ( on title ) meanwhile his girlfriend doesnt feel like she's being loved my him?!

To be honest, I am not a kinda girl who is very lovely and stuffs. you know what I'm saying right? What I'm trying to say here, I dont feel he appreciates the existence of me in his life. Sad isnt it? But that is the truth.

Dont get me wrong here. He is such a nice man, and I love to be his friend. but to be his girlfriend, I dont think so. I had made a very wrong decision by being his girlfriend. I love if we stand more to friend, not more than this. Well I guess we are not meant to be. I am not the right woman to be with him. I dont deserve to be with him..

As a Muslim, love to Allah is the priority. Love after marriage is more blessed. Thank you for spending your time on here. I rarely talk about our love relationship, so I guess this the end. Have a nice day :)

I'm back!

wow It has been a long time since I havent write anything new in this blog! how are you doing readers?

Obviously, I was busy with SPM 'stuffs'. Ahak! I meant I was busy studying studying studying and making a very strong preparation for the BIG EXAMINATION. Alhamdulillah, 7 subjects were 'happily' finished and now I have 2 subjects left, Chemistry and Biology. Oh god give me strength!

Now its 12.54 in the morning. I am not sleeping yet. Yeah I know I should be studying right now instead of wasting time on the internet. sigh I know o_O but my brain just cannot focus on the thing named BOOK. hahahah! LOL just kidding!

yeah and starting from today, I will make myself little bit rajin la kan to keep updating my blog. hehe insya-Allah :)

HIM

priceless :)

yeah I'm not single

assalamualaikum and hey everyone!


tiba tiba hari ni datang mood untuk update blog ada something nak cerita. :D


aku selalu jugak la pakai cincin tu time jalan jalan sebab ianya cantik dan sesuai untuk aku.ok the point aku tulis kali ni bukan sebab cincin tu, tapi nak cakap yang aku ni no longer single. atau dalam erti kata lain aku sudah berpunya.


ye ye memang aku dah berpunya!  macam mana nak cakap ye? haahhh aku dah ada boyfriend! dan aku memang over the moon hari ni (8/0/12) sebab Luqman tanya aku sudi ke tak dia menjadi sebahagian dari hidup aku. and my answer of course lah YES! 


dan sejujurnya, aku ni bukan seorang yang romantik apatah lagi manja2 seperti banyak kekasih2 diluar sana sering melakukan. bagi aku bila kita menjalin hubungan dengan seseorang tu, tidak kepura puraan tu sangat penting. aku pegang prinsip tu sampai bila2. aku lebih suka kalau orang tu suka dengan diri aku sebenar bukan dari paras rupa ke apa ( wohoiii bajet muka cun!)


ye ye dia cakap dia suka kat aku sebab aku lain daripada lain. and I'm not 100% sure bout that. yes! sebab we are human being and we all do same things! am I right? hahah. ok ok it's okay.


and my promise here, I'll try my best to be faith and not to cheat on you. and I hope our relationship will be long last because you know, aku ni memang susah nak ada hubungan yang serius dengan seseorang yang berlainan jantina daripada aku. peace!